May 4 - I'm back to drew with English.. This time, 'Broken English' (ehheh2).. Things are getting straight forward today.. Everything seems predictable and yet I'm still unachievable.. Consequence (my fav. words..wee) I'm a bit late to understands the situation played.. Recalled.. As the paper this morning (QSM & Tx)not 'that' tough but somewhere I'm run off the tracks (lalala~~!).. My head can't stands on its own and minor headache loudly screaming the pain (adoiyai~~!).. Enough the confession session held, I'm better get going.. This time, let I talks to myself....
I : what time is now?
Myself : 45 after 10.. I : what were we doing eh? Myself : mm..blogging..lol I : what we should being doing? Myself : study..? we guess?.. I : then??.... Myself : then what??.. 'maen2' la kot.. I : Otak kite..study lol.. Myself : huh??..hee.. ok2..jum~~ I : adoiyai~~
MAY 2 - Yup, i write personally.. eventually at last.. mm, i been thinking to privatize my blog since age ago.. and today it is realize.. this is the first entry i write to myself and i am happy with this... cut the crap, first I'm really calm(baru bgon tidow), even certain things run up off the tracks but anyhow I'm manage to cope with it..*haih*(it's take a deep breath to cope with this mess).. Perenggan baru baris satu.. yup, first time jugak entry ni dalam bhasa melayu..(knape?) saje suke2 je.. huh, hebat sgt ke aku smpai xbole dah na berbahasa sendiri?..heh2.. plus..markah 'technical communication' aku xde la stinggi mne..I'm happy..(yeke?) tak lah, xpuas la..even though dpt A tp xmnepati target aku..(nak tinggi mne lagi?)heh2.. pros & cons.. highest in the class but not of the batch.. nur hidayah ape ntah(if not mistaken)got 91..clas mne pon tataw..hee..kagum.. even xde la beza mrkah jao sgt(xsampai 10 pon) tp dia ttp hebat(da dpt da free carry marks dr aku nih, klau packages laen ok mmg la kne ngorat budak ni..heh2)anyway, next sem 'professional communication', here i come..lalala~~
*sigh* awkward isn't it?.. I'm still having time to write this silly diary even final is on my barrier(release tension kot) huh, screaming out, most of my time is release.. (ckp mlas je kan senang) heh, anywhich, this is me.. I'm happy(yeke?) iye, kali ni mmg happppyyy~~!
perenggan empat tajuk pembukaan kerajaan-kay.. heh, anyway, I'm some how gonna open-writing but one day lah..bkn esok lusa ok... tggu da bjuta post, pastu aku open la balik..sabaw laa..*giggle*hik2
next topics... tade da..tu je aku na ckp..byk lagi tp nt2 la eak..hee..salam*wave*..
kakinote - nme entry pon freedom, so font size pon freedom
Happy 28th day older than me(hint tu na promote birthday aku pulak) Happy Labour Day(means holiday also for study...eheh) Happy final exam also(just anggap la hadiah birthday from dekan) Happy sleep tite tonight(after 'hantu2' story section just now) Happy blogging afterward and serve the best work(and impressed more ehem2) May GOD bless you and your life after(Aminn..) May you got your MARA loan cepat sikit(same goes to me ;/) May you be happily ever after with ehem-ehem Shira(bkn nme sbnar eak) May you belanja me McD etc.(cafe bawah pon ok jee) May you trough the exam week survivable-ly(eheh2) May you got for Hostel place next sem(to me also) May you have the best May(da xde modal na karut) & May you have a prosperous and successful day ahead~~
I have download PRESENT v2.5 and TEDDY BEAR PRO that you suggest and I don’t know why it isn’t work? Plus, I install APOLOGIES PREMIUM v8.0 and it still not work out... Thus I try to delete SCANDAL PRO v7.0.5 and still my laptop wasn’t show any better; and yet, SCANDAL PRO v7.0.5 can’t be remove due to the software is in use... Now I don’t know what to do, then I come out to install FUTSAL PETANG-PETANG v5.3,YAHOO MESSENGER BETA, and ESPN_AT_CAFE BAWAH v7.0… It’s really worked and I enjoyed all those new software... One more thing, FINAL EXAM v1.0 is recommended me to update due to the trial version is nearly out of date... The problem is, it required additional software RAJIN PREMIUM SUITE and STUDY GROUP PROFESSIONAL v8.5.5 that I don’t have yet because the download speed signal at my place is very low... Would you figured out what is my best option to run out my laptop at her best rate? Thanks in advance...
STUDENTS BMI S109
Dear STUDENTS BMI S109,
I come out to conclusion why PRESENT v2.5 and TEDDY BEAR PRO you install isn’t worked out… This is because you still can’t uninstall SCANDAL PRO v7.0.5; it is unidentified software that threads your laptop’s performances thus make it slower and hibernates by itself… Now I recommended you to download antivirus that is LAST CHANCE TRIAL v9.5.5… It’s only trial but I enclosed a premium key within… Try to install and delete SCANDAL PRO v7.0.5 as fast as possible… Settle of that, next about the trial version of FINAL EXAM v1.0... You should get those RAJIN PREMIUM SUITE and STUDY GROUP PROFESSIONAL v8.5.5 because this software helps to shield you from virus and threads such as SLEEP EARLY&WAKEUP LATE.exe and MAIN-MAIN.exe… You also should less use FUTSAL-PETANG-PETANG v5.3, YAHOO MESSENGER BETA, and ESPN_AT_CAFE BAWAH v7.0 because it use lots of CPU memory, and make your laptop loss it battery’s life… Anyhow, I just create new freeware that I recommended you to try… It is AL-QURAN PORTABLE and JEMAAH DI SURAU v1.0.0…
April 21 - Finally it is come to this.. But this time, it is bigger, better and barrier.. Once to recall, it's kind a pretty much of season ago I've been through but.. somehow the endeavor is doubled up.. The final is knocking the unconscious.. haihh~~! The study week someway turn the mood swing and dominated weak.. As far to concern,the journey comes to the ends within fully noticed even the battle's heats almost to burn we alive.. May God light up our Heart and resistance those Burdens and Barriers.. ....Aminn~~!
March 28 - first of all~~ it's been a while when somehow I'm personally felt adequate of blogging.. Objective of blogging is no more statue and it's off by my thought.. Once someday I'm gonna change my web address and write privately.. sorry for inconveniences but..on second thought.. it's ain't now and I'm let it here much few longer..
placed second~~ let hibernate tonight~~ will you?..
March 13 - Suddenly, from no where the memorable of she came across my mind and that memoirs reprieve, reprimand, reprisal and reproach me.. it's such a lame to remembering all those days back.. i wish not to recall but frankly, i can't stop wondering about that and this worth killing me severely.. but the fact~~! it's all over~~! there you go, and never try to turn back again.. persuasion is useless i guess, as you never replay back on my last letter.. Question~~! whose to blame?~~ me?~~ she?~~ situation?~~ fate?~~ maybe this letter is the answer.. A letter I've wrote since you leave me hanging ropeless, since the last of you in every inch seconds of my breath, since the incident that break us apart eternity..
31 Ogos 1998
Kepada Bekas Kekasihku,
Dalam kesuraman ultra lembayung tika tujuh bulan menumpahkan cahaya dibawah kaki langit khirmizi, tiba-tiba aku terkenangkan eurika nostalgia cinta lama yang kita palitkan berdua. Kehadiranmu bersama molekul-molekul hidrogen menerjang segala kekusutan yang membelit tali perutku. Dan kehadiranmu itu mengajar aku erti rindu gelora dan shahdu.Kau juga mengajarku erti cinta, singa laut,beruang kutub, penguin, kambing salji, mee rebus, cendol, koridor, kotak pensil, tali kasut dan pasu bunga.Kala itu, kita bagaikan Nobita dan Sizuka.Kau dan aku umpama Kurt Cobain dan Rafeah Buang yang tidak dapat dipisahkan. Malangnya percintaan yang mendapat liputan meluas hingga ke planet Ziku itu telah mengundang perpisahan yang akhirnya telah mengecewakan seluruh penternak lipan di Burma. Kau pergi jua ketika Kuala Lumpur sedang bersiap sedia menjadi tuan rumah Sukan Komanwel 1998.
Sesungguhnya perpisahan itu berpunca daripada penebangan pokok getah secara besar-besaran di Lembah Klang. Pemergianmu menyebabkan aku menghidap penyakit resdung dan hepatitis-Q secara mengejut. Ketiadaanmu memaksa aku memakai topi keledar setiap masa sebagai langkah keselamatan. Aku seperti tidak percaya dengan apa yang telah terjadi. Aku bagaikan tergelincir dari orbit bumi dan terpelanting ke ruang angkasa, apabila daya tarikan graviti terhadapku tiada lagi berfungsi setelahaku tersungkur dalam percintaan yang berlarutan hingga ke rubber-set. Seluruh perjalanan hidupku menjadi gelita bagaikan terperangkap di dalam gua yang gelap dan ditemani stlagit dan stlagmit yang bagai sembilu. Kondominium cinta yang kita bina dari makgat basikal dan kipas helikopter akhirnya musnah setelah kau berpaling tadah. Ternyata sikapmu mulai berubah bila Malaysia mula melancarkan satelit MEASAT-1 ke ruang angkasa raya. Sejak itu kau sering melarikan diri bila terserempak dengan abang iparku. Akhirnya aku menyedari bahawa diri ini tidak diperlukan lagi.
Sejak kau tiada, aku sering menyendiri berbual-bual dengan pokok betik untuk mengisi masa lapang. Kadang-kadang aku mengikat botol oren pada tiang rumah agar nampak lebih cantik. Saban hari aku termenung di dalam peti sejuk mengenangkan dirimu yang entah kemana menghilang. Aku cuba bermain badminton sambil makan mi hailam untuk melupakanmu, tetapi aku tak berdaya. Lalu aku membakar mesin basuh dan membelasah empat ekor itik serati jiran sebelah sebagai tanda aku tidak bersalah.
Mengapa? Mengapa sayang? Mengapa ini semua bisa terjadi? Mengapa setelah kau curi hatiku, kau rompak cintaku lantas kau bunuh cintaku sehingga kau terbunuh dalam kemalangan cinta yang ngeri. Aku bagaikan terhimpit dan dihimpit oleh guni-guni batu yang kau timpakan di atas belakangku. Derita yang kautimpakan itu adalah bebanan yang terlalu berat untuk ku tanggung bagaikan mendukung 75 ekor biawak dan 386 ekor anak beruk. Dan kini segala harapanku hancur berkecai bagaikan aku terjatuh dari Menara Kuala Lumpur dan dihempap oleh Menara Berkembar Petronas lalu tersangkut di celah landasan LRT dan kemudiannya digilis pula keretapi Komuter hingga aku hancur berkecai. Oh! terlalu berat dugaan yang kutempuhi kini.
Kini segalanya telah pun berakhir. Aku sedar siapa aku. Aku hanya insan biasa yang suka makan mi segera. Aku bukan McGyver, McDonald's, Superman atau Kesatria Baja Hitam. Aku juga bukanlah Ultraman seperti yang kau idam-idamkan. Aku menyedari kekurangan diri dan kekurangan kemudahan awam di tempat sendiri. Tak perlu dikesali lagi kerana nasi telah menjadi capati dan tin sardin yang ku genggam ini telah pun luput tarikhnya. Segalanya sungguh mengharukan dan semua hadiah pemberianmu termasuk enjin kapal selam telah pun aku cincang untuk dibuat makanan lembu.
Walaupun segalanya telah pun berakhir, disini, diatas pokok getah ini aku tetap menunggu kau akan kembali. Selagi ada nafas ini, selagi ada kompleks membeli-belah SOGO, selagi ada kedai kasut selipar di sekitar Argentina, selagi kumpulan Metallica tidak berpecah, aku tetap menunggumu sehinggalah mentari terbelah lapan. Namun aku menyedari bahawa penantianku hanyalah sia-sia belaka. Akhirnya aku mengambil keputusan mektamad untuk menunggu tiang elektrik dihadapan rumahku berbuah. kalau tiang elektrik berbuah nanti, aku poskan buahnya kepadamu. Nak tak?
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May 4 - I'm back to drew with English.. This time, 'Broken English' (ehheh2).. Things are getting straight forward today.. Everything seems predictable and yet I'm still unachievable.. Consequence (my fav. words..wee) I'm a bit late to understands the situation played.. Recalled.. As the paper this morning (QSM & Tx) not 'that' tough but somewhere I'm run off the tracks (lalala~~!).. My head can't stands on its own and minor headache loudly screaming the pain (adoiyai~~!).. Enough the confession session held, I'm better get going.. This time, let I talks to myself....
